あたらし！！！

It better rain today.
I check the weather forecast like 3 times today. IT says thundershowers in few areas.
Wore a sweater and now i am praying for it to be as cold as yesterday.
Yesterday's rain left me with a lil runny nose. I was freezing and had a bad headache
with abit of giddiness.I forgot to bring my brolly and thank God the rain stop when I
went home.

Today.. I havent hear any thunder yet. The brolly is in my bag getting ready to get wet! and I am getting ready for the cold with my sweater.

*rain dance* It better rain. *rain Dance*

Recently I've had a good talk with my sis.
Some thoughts brewing in our heads.
Like sorta starting to bubble furiously.

I suddenly find my boring black and white life starting to get back it's colours.
I want to start finding out more about pattiserie classes and more.
I want to learn photography
I want to go and take design.
So many I wants.

Should have gone tht direction long ago but things happens for a reason.

I need a dslr.
I need an oven.
I need cash.

I've forgotten abt blogging. forgotten abt my existing LJ account. Opps. *guilty*
Anyhow I was in a self reflective mode for the last few days. Thinking about my life, what I've accomplished so far.

From zenith prayer pastor karen picked up things concerning my life.
About: finding, steps i take is ordain by God, Stepping-in and pulling down my thoughts and ready for something.
She ended off asking me a question : What attracts me?

What is it? What is it? I need to hear from God.
I need to be still and hear His voice.

Audrey says she's got the inkling that it's related to my life parter.

I nv believe in going into a relationship for the sake of going into one.

I believe in being equally yoked in the eyes of God.




Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Here I am in Heartland(AGAIN!!!!). I seriously kinda dread coming to this mall. Epic memories. LOL
Here I am thinking tht 2010 is the time when I can start my new job but who knows due to some reasons it was delayed. To my utter dismay I am stuck in heartland mall for a week with chinese new year music blasting frm the speaker above me and.....

A mop promoter beside me.

OMG. I think I wish i am deaf for the moment.

Here one of the last jobs on earth I will ever touch. Here lady A and B rambles on and on and on... while I m trying best not to listen to the. But.

They are SO convincing! So convincing that one will question their own self-worth.

Why do we have to put ourselves thru mopping the floor the traditional way for the last 20-30 yrs (rmbering she's speaking to a bunch of aunties.. so for me it's 10 yrs ) ? Why shld we make mopping the floor such a chore that will result in backaches or ever backsprain? Do you like mopping the floor? Why shld we tolerate such nonsense and follow the norm? Dont you think that you dread it when it comes to the time for you to mop the oily floor? Don't you think your hands always get dirty when you have to dry the old mops.

Suddenly I thought to my self.. omg...what if when I have my future house.. I cant find this new mopping system anymore!!! What if I have dry hands and backaches frm mopping in future without this wonderful revolutionary mop?

obviously my translated version of their promotion doesnt do any justice to them. They are so so so convincing that what they say is almost etched into my memory. I really must hand it to them.

somehow I feel tht it's like a hallucination.

why must you all break my heart again.





why?

Loads of stuff happened.. Went prawning with rach, bro and the jap kids ( Erika And Nae).
I must say I love prawning. The satisfaction you get out of catching ur own prawns is so hard to put in words. You've gotta be there to try it yourself!
Mum came back from her hk+bkk trip. I totally miss mum to the max. Dad,mum,cali and I had a small snacker at my all time fav. Popeye!!!
Mum brought back loads of stuff for my blogshop. Thanks alot mum.
I must say it wasnt easy to help mum to look after the shop esp chionging to the bank at weird timings. I met a super cute baby on the way back frm hougang station to Kovan. There's this uber hip daddy (with pony tail and all)with this uber hip pram. In tht uber hip pram there's this cutest lil thing in the world. Totally covered in pink dress with small knitted pink beanie. OMG *melts* I was actually staring at her cos she's super uber cute and party cos i find it rare to see dads bringing their babies out esp when that guy looked like he rides a harley. =X
Ok back to the uber cute baby girl. She's roughly 9mths? gosh she has the nicest looking beady eyes and lovely chubby cheeks. *double melts* She somehow saw that i was looking at her so i waved at her. To my surprise.. she waved back ( in the twinkle star kind of wave) and burst into giggles... OMGGGG I so feel like picking her up and tickle her. SO CUTE CAN. Then i waved she waved(Giggles) I waved she waved(giggles) then i peek-a-boo she hid her face behind the pram shelter or whatever u call tht. gosh.... so cute. Too bad it only lasted one stop. and the uber cool papa say to the uber cute baby.. jiejie going of already.
I was feeling kinda sian cos my bro pang-seh me to play his blackshot rathan then to go to the bank and then have dinner with me. However the uber cute baby made me smile all the way back to the shop. =D
Anyway, met up with rach yesterday, we went to clarke quay and drew stuff! Rach drew a picture of me in her sketch complete with background and all. =) Then we went to meet nessa for dinner. Love you guys loads =)


This is like the second time someone drew me. The other time i remembered was during poly my freehand drawing cds.

Rach will see you soon k. Meanwhile... I Cant wait for christmas. =)) Yays

I am totally totally drained from accumulated lack of sleep.
Went to mum's shop today to help her bank in money and clear towels and whatnot.
I came home.. stare at the laptop.. and fell asleep without even knowing until my head knock onto something..
I think it's either the floor or the laptop.
Tomorrow's another day but i guess it's much more fun cos I will be hosting 2 jap kids to stay over.
Erika and Nae.. I look forward to tmr!

Yesterday i was watching Tokyo Dogs. Omg it's Shun and Hiro again! Shun is superbly handsome in his suit+suspenders+vest+police aura. FAINTS. watch it.. it's good!!




And recently I have got this di tht is super entertaining. Think i will be bored to death if i nv talk to him.
Thanks domo drew. ^^

After a thousand an one exams, test I have sat. This is finally the moment. The feeling of being free and liberated is so good. At the same time it sorta marks the start of the next chapter of my life. I am still much confuse of what I want to do but at this point of time i just live life as it is.
Sometimes I just think it aint too good to have too much free time on hand as it kinda interupts my trend of thoughts. I hate to feel so alone. It's not so much of the alone alone feeling but you kinda like drown yourself with self-pity. I so feel like slapping myself.
Anyhow I have not much of freetime any longer. Many up and coming events and I need to get ready the amount of energy to battle with it all. Thank you Lord for your strength! This is my favourite time of the year. I love christmas however I am kinda dreading to be part of the musical with me taking one of the lead roles. I have a history of stage fright. LOL. unbelievable right. I dont mind singing in a grp but when it sorta zooms in on me i get self concious. I must admit one of my biggest prob is to memorise lyrics. HAHA.
Anyhow I love the rain!!!! It is like Singapore's version of SNOW. It gives me the excuse to wear more sweater-- something which I love and cannot do without. Anyhow I think i better get my bodyclock into sleeping at the normal time. Have had too many late nights.
Gosh saw rach's halloween pic. So cool la. Too bad I am having my exams or I would have gone for it too. I LOVE UR GOTHIC LOOK rach. like seriously never see u in this Light. LOL. Rach videoed me playing jubeat thingy at the arcade. She influenced me into tht arcade thingy. I must say I am bad at it.. HAHAHAHA.. I prefer the drum game.... AND I LOVE MY THT UNION JACK NAILS RACH.
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AND i love that christmas song you intro. LOVE YA MAMESHIBA. (^_^) v



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Havent been feeling well the whole week. Think due to the bad location of the pushcart.
It was situated near the shopping entrance and half of the time i had cold and hot air swirling ard me.
Anyway I have to get better else I cant sing on sunday! ROAR!

Anyhow.. the whole approximately 2 weeks I have contributing my time to work and badly neglected my schwork. Been wanting to start on it but I feel so drained to think. This is not good! I shall stop this bad bad behaviour. Had my break finally, been sleeping thru the day to replenish energy and recuperate at the same time. 

Bro treated me to lunch by ordering mac home. I ate my favourite double-cheese. Yayness. I feel bad for leaving mum at the shop =( .Need to make use of this opportunity to finish up MC and start on my 3000 word SO essay. Arghhhh...
 

There was a time
When dreams are sour ,
and I'm drained from power.
I tried running and turning but to no avail.
My goals and ambition are churning in the wrong directions
and my time is exploding by fractions.
Then I remember that such things are worthless
All cause and worries are nothing but silly.
Cos God is the One whose Love That matters.
I am His Child and nothing else is better.
All that matters Is His way and will
and suddenly all my troubles will disappear.
I feel much better after the battle of my own ineptitude
When all I have to do is to change that attitude.
I will cast it to Him from now on
And all my troubles will be gone.

Louisa~